Karmic Insight Report for

November 17, 2020

10:20 AM

Neptune City, New Jersey

AWAKENINGS, INC.

From an esoteric point of view your birth chart is a portrait of your soul's intention for this lifetime, the lessons to be learned, qualities to develop, problems to be resolved, service to be rendered. From that perspective, the choices one makes in one's daily life have reverberations that may last beyond even this lifetime.

This report is written to help you clarify your lessons and goals, illuminate your struggles, and encourage you to move in the direction of your true purposes.

The best to you on your journey...

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Sun 25 Sco 08 Pluto 10 Leo 16

Moon 14 Sag 25 N. Node 21 Can 09

Mercury 10 Sag 40 Asc. 26 Sag 22

Venus 1 Cap 34 MC 18 Lib 57

Mars 24 Sco 16 2nd cusp 24 Cap 17

Jupiter 23 Vir 00 3rd cusp 2 Pis 03

Saturn 10 Can 12 5th cusp 10 Tau 56

Uranus 11 Gem 46 6th cusp 2 Gem 58

Neptune 5 Lib 43

Tropical Koch War Time observed

GMT: 14:20:00 Time Zone: 5 hours West

Lat. and Long. of birth: 40 N 12 74 W 01 42

Aspects and orbs:

Conjunction : 5 Deg 00 Min Trine : 4 Deg 00 Min

Opposition : 5 Deg 00 Min Sextile : 3 Deg 00 Min

Square : 4 Deg 00 Min Quincunx : 3 Deg 00 Min

Conjunct Asc : 3 Deg 00 Min Above, 5 Deg 00 Min Below

The placement of the Moon in your birth chart is very significant from a karmic perspective, as it indicates the accumulated karmic tendencies, both positive and negative, that you carry from your past incarnated experiences on earth.

While the Sun reveals your intended purposes and lessons for this present life cycle, the MOON represents what you have already done and developed, hence, what is instinctive and natural to you, and what you tend to do over and over again. Your childhood is also reflected in the Moon's placement, as it is through those childhood circumstances that any unresolved past-life issues are re-stimulated. Your subconscious predisposition is indicated by the Moon's position. It is the psychic imprint of the past. The nodes of the Moon describe behavior patterns from the past, as well as delineating a direction out of outworn or overdone behaviors and habits.

Through your past incarnations you have developed a deeply ingrained philosophical attitude to any problems or challenges you face, and you fall back on your religious beliefs or spiritual faith in hard times. It is likely that you were a spiritual aspirant seeking truth and wisdom, and this quest con-tinues in this lifetime as well. Your deep subconscious memories of being in a religious order or community dedicated to the inner life may surface as a yearning for a similar experience in this life, to find soul mates, kindred spirits, a spiritual family with which to share the journey. Friendship and fellowship is very important to you. Instinctively open and emotionally generous, you do not like to exclude anybody, and can feel as much sympathy, closeness, and family feeling with your friends as with blood relatives. In fact, you open your arms to just about anybody and because you are an idealist who looks for the good in other people, you are apt to have a wide circle of friends, friendly acquain-tances, and people who feel warmly toward you. You may also seek to fulfill the urge for an expansive family feeling by welcoming a lot of parties, joining church groups, getting involved in school functions or community gatherings, affiliating yourself with a sports team, or in other ways. Broad-minded and tolerant, you tend to consider someone a friend unless they prove themselves otherwise. However, you prefer to surround yourself with people who share your ideals, convictions, and aspirations, people who will support you in your cause -whatever that happens to be.

You are essentially fun-loving, enthusiastic, and out for a good time. You do not like to bring other people down or be brought down by other people's woes. You do often have a cheering and inspiring effect on people. However, you also tend to avoid emotional pain - other people's as well as your own. Brushing aside or minimizing real human feelings and reactions, whether these be sorrow, fear, self-doubt, anger, or any other "negative" feeling, or thinking you can "fix" it with philosophical advice, positive thinking, affirmations, entertaining diversions, or just plain repression is apt to be a habit of yours. You frequently use humor to avoid confronting problems or having to take other people's suffering seriously. Deep inside you may feel spiritually superior, "above all that", a favored son or daughter of God -somehow not quite vulnerable. You can be moralistic and preachy, always pointing out the lessons to be learned from a difficult experience rather than truly empathizing or compassionately understanding what someone else might be feeling. Ideally, however, you can combine your understanding of truth with human caring and a deep desire to better conditions for others.

At your best, you are hopeful and optimistic without being overly inflated or impractical, expectant of positive outcomes and thereby helping to create them.

Other lifetimes which may well influence you in the present include being a wandering minstrel, world traveler, explorer or adventurer. A great love of freedom, open spaces, the ocean, travel, and a broad view of life was thus engendered, as well as a certain restlessness and a tendency to move on when things get too familiar and mundane. A love of the foreign and exotic still stirs you.

In your incarnational past there was a great deal of upheaval and sudden change, possibly precipitated by political or social shifts. You were forced to choose between your home and all that was familiar, versus freedom or your ideals. You became very adaptable, living moment to moment, and there was very little of a solid, enduring home-base. You lived a somewhat unorthodox and unpredictable life which, while insecure and uncertain in many respects, did afford you a lot of freedom and wild adventures. (The pattern of frequent change, movement and upsets in the home may or may not have been repeated early in your current life).

The carry over from that time into the present is a peculiar, emotional excitability and a highly, restless emotional state which at times can lead to extreme nervous strain and exhaustion. Along with this is a craving for stimulation and a taste for the new, bizarre, even perverse. You may feel that you were not meant for a "straight", conventional, tranquil existence, even if you long at times for the comforts such a lifestyle seems to provide. A desire for total emotional freedom and release from past conditioning and inhibitions may compel you to make a nearly-total break from your family or heritage, to the point of adopting a new name, religion, or lifestyle than the one you were raised with. All of this may serve you well - to a point. Beware, however, of becoming an extremist and trying to rid yourself of everything in your past, "throwing the baby out with the bath water" so to speak, as this will cut you off from important aspects of yourself.

This urge for emotional freedom and excitement can also interfere with your establishment of deep, ongoing relationships. You fear being trapped in monotony and boredom if you commit yourself to a permanent relationship. Any long-term relationship you form must have a lot of personal space and room to change and to be spontaneous.

When out of balance you can become very ungrounded and are prone to emotional swings. Positively, you can be very inspired, musically or artistically or in other ways. When balanced you have a great sense of rhythm, and your spontaneous intuitive insights and impulses are apt to be right on the mark.

In your incarnational past, your worldly ambitions, duties, or responsibilities took precedence over you. Discipline and rules were more important than emotion. Your growth direction now is to learn to trust, feel, and give and receive nourishment, care, support, and tenderness.

Your past tendency is so natural to you, so much a part of how you are, that you probably do not think twice. Let others help bring out your new attitude or growth direction; be willing to be a learner. Selfishness and a deeply rooted "me first" attitude needs to give way to a consciousness of "us" and/or what you can do with or for the other.

You are gifted with the ability to connect your instincts and emotions with your intellect, and many of your talents spring from this, such as the sensitivity and dexterity with which you use your hands, your writing ability, your intuitive understanding of other people, the ability to recall and understand dreams, and your capacity to both understand and communicate about the inner, subjective, personal, feeling side of life. You especially understand and communicate easily with women, and you tend to draw others out and get them to talk about themselves. You are a good listener, you pick up subtle cues, and at times you will take on other people's ideas and thoughts as your own, absorbing them by osmosis, so to speak.

However, the past experiences and subconscious patterns and beliefs discussed above may so color your thinking that you do not question them or detach yourself sufficiently to examine them objectively. You tend to have emotionally-based opinions rather than a rational, unbiased point of view. Prejudicial thinking is the possible negative potential here, and learning to see your ideas for what they are, namely your own opinion based on personal experience, rather than fact is important for you.

Regardless of any traumas you may have experienced in the past, you were also surrounded with a lot of love and affection which has engendered in you a very kind, devoted, loving nature and a sweet disposition. Your relationships with the women in your life are apt to be a source of much happiness and blessings, also, because at a deep level you understand and appreciate them, having (most likely) been female often in your incarnational past.

You have a rather peace-loving, comfort-seeking nature which may resist strenuous effort or discipline. You like to be pampered and may look for a "sugar daddy" or "sugar mama" to ease your way. Self-indulgence in sweets or pleasures is apt to be a habit also.

The Sun in your birth chart represents the primary creative thrust for this lifetime, those qualities you are to develop (or further develop) and express, and your current life focus. This may be in harmony with your instincts and your emotional habits, or along completely different lines. The Sun represents your conscious identity in this lifetime.

For you, this lifetime revolves upon the theme of experiencing your emotional depths, and penetrating the surface of life to explore the hidden, dark, secret or taboo. What lurks in the shadows or in the inner depths of the human soul is what concerns you, and it is your task to become aware of and express what you find hidden there. What society at large may fear or repress, you are fascinated with and drawn to experience and understand. This may include both a fear of and absorption with death and the mysterious side of life, delving into the politics of sexuality and power and experiencing strong, "dark" emotions such as passion, jealousy, revenge, or a desire for control. At times you may feel like a misfit, that your yearnings, desires, and true inclinations are somehow wrong or bad, or even that you are bad. You could take on a social persona which is dark and hints at something sinister (such as always wearing black, going out only at night...). However, your feeling for the dark undercurrents of life and your drive to experience life passionately and intensely, without avoiding any of it, may be expressed less overtly.

You are attracted to crisis, those transition times in life when people are tested, when their social masks do not matter anymore, and the true person is revealed. You may feel most alive and most yourself in life and death situations, whether you are involved in saving lives (as a doctor or healer), in destroying them (as in war), or simply by seeking out dangerous situations and dangerous companions. Often you will create your own crisis (especially in the arena of your close personal relationships) in order to pit yourself against the challenge. Other people may view this as a self-destructive urge in you, a masochistic (or sadistic) streak. The truth is you would rather feel pain, than to feel nothing at all. You want to be fully immersed in it, deeply and passionately involved. (Life for you is not a spectator sport).

You have great compassion and sympathetic feelings for those suffering or in pain, whether physical or emotional, for you are no stranger to it yourself. You may feel scornful of those people who appear to glide through life, never experiencing any real tragedy or pain, or plumbing their own depths. In love, it is the possibility of loss or betrayal that intensifies the experience for you. Put simply, you do not accept anything at face value, you instinctively know that there is a dark underside for every light surface. Understanding this shadowy side is a key to fulfilling your life purpose.

Personal relationships may be an obsession of yours, the arena where your passion and drive for intense closeness and emotional union expresses itself fully. However, trust, vulnerability, and relinquishing control are not easy for you. Because of this, and because you have a great capacity and need for emotional intensity (which not everyone can match) your human relationships are frequently not smooth. You go to extremes. With you it is usually all or nothing, whether you choose total celibacy or complete immersion and involvement. A really loving intimate relationship can be tremendously healing for you also, especially if you allow your partner to see who you really are, including those aspects of yourself you usually hide and consider ugly and unacceptable. Being unconditionally accepted by another may be the first step toward embracing your own "darkness", which will be a lifelong lesson for you. The fairy tale perhaps most relevant to this task is "Beauty and the Beast". Rather than rejecting your beastliness (your negativity, fear, or not-beautiful emotions or impulses) you must learn to look at and lovingly accept them, thus, transforming yourself. Ultimately it is those who have struggled with and come to terms with their darkness who are able to bring light, understanding and healing to others who suffer, and this is part of your life's purpose.

Like the brilliant diamond which is formed through intense and concentrated pressure, you are intended to develop inner depth, strength, and maturity through periods of intense aloneness, and what one might deem hardship. Early on you may well be required to face difficult circumstances or take sole responsibility for yourself, possibly due to the loss or lack of a strong relationship with your father. You may feel that you will never measure up to your father's expectations of you, that he disapproves or is disappointed in you, that you are not quite enough. In response to this you may become super responsible and conscientious, working extremely hard to achieve or be something that will make your father proud, even forcing yourself into some mold, or inhibiting certain essential aspects of yourself in order to be taken seriously. You may be prone to intense self-doubt and inclined toward excessive guilt, all of which tends to shroud your life in subtle, pervasive ways, and a constant sense of struggle and effort and of having to do it all alone may result. It is true that, in many ways, you will have to stand alone in this life, and cut off from the usual avenues of support, you will be developing true self-reliance, self-definition, and self-responsibility. You may have to break away from your father, his values, or way of being in order to truly be yourself. And, you will be repeatedly tested, which makes you quite aware, probably too much so, of your own limitations and inadequacies. Through this process, however, you will develop a certain toughness and strength you did not have before. Beware of becoming too hardened and serious, however, or of becoming the demanding perfectionist, the severe taskmaster towards other people. Keeping your heart open through the trials of your life rather than succumbing to cynicism or self-condemnation, will certainly enable you to move forward on your path more easily.

Your conscious aims, intentions and desires are in harmony with your deeper, mostly unconscious attitudes and needs, and thus you are able to move toward your goals in life without a lot of internal conflict. You are also likely to get a lot of support from your family, particularly female relatives, as well as from women in general, many of whom share a spiritual bond with you from previous incarnational experiences. In many ways you are reaping the fruits of the goodwill you have generated in the past. Though you, like all of us, are apt to go through times of discord and stress, you are able to re-establish your inner psychological balance and harmony in your life rather quickly.

The point that was on the eastern horizon at the moment of your birth is called the ASCENDANT, or rising sign. While the Sun describes your conscious direction and current life focus, and the Moon your subconscious predisposition and past, the Ascendant indicates a way of being that transcends and embraces past, present, and future. It describes the way you engage and merge with the outer world and how you bring through into life the energies depicted by the Sun, the Moon, and the rest of your birth chart. Everything is filtered through the Ascendant from an esoteric point of view. It indicates your soul's function and thus a key part of your destiny.

Faith, belief and the ability to foresee and envision the future or "what could be" are essential elements of your soul function. You may well be ahead of your time or at the fore front of coming trends and movements in the collective. You are a seeker, one who searches for the overview, the larger pattern, or a broad, over-arching philosophy of life - and also a teacher who conveys that vision or broadcasts it in some way. Your ruling planet is Jupiter.

Your Jupiter in Virgo suggests that in addition to your vision and your ability to see the big picture, you have highly developed critical and intellectual faculties. You believe very strongly in education and lifelong learning. You are meant to translate your philosophical beliefs into concrete, practical service, and are particularly suited to education, medicine, law - or somehow combining these together. (Teaching about health and "natural laws", for instance).

Karmically considered, the placement of Saturn in your birth chart indicates where your energetic blockages, weaknesses and fears lie, and the areas of your life where the most concentrated effort and discipline will be required to master and overcome them. Yet it also points to the aspects of life which can become your greatest strength if you are willing to face your fears and difficulties honestly, and work with them patiently.

You have great fears of being vulnerable and needy, of being hurt or rejected, of letting others see the dependent, childlike, tender, feeling side of yourself. You may stifle these feelings and put on an armor of detachment or stoicism, shouldering everyone else's burdens and responsibilities but never letting on that you would like to be taken care of sometimes.

Although you crave acceptance and a feeling of belonging, you may distance yourself from the very people who might genuinely care for you (whenever they get too close) or you may deny altogether your needs for human connection and intimacy. You feel awkward and clumsy expressing tenderness or anything resembling sentimentality, and may feel quite aloof from your family (as well as the softer side of your own nature). On the other hand, you may cling tenaciously to your home and family as a base of security, and depend on them excessively or need constant reassurance from them. An inordinate emphasis on loyalty and responsibility in personal relationships (on your part) may stem from a basic insecurity and a fear of being deserted. At worst you may be terrified of anything unfamiliar.

A karmic tie to your mother, a strong sense of indebtedness and/or guilt, or the deep feeling that something was missing in your relationship to her is also indicated. Lessons regarding parenting, and giving and receiving nurturance, are crucial for you in this lifetime.

The whole arena of marriage, cooperative partnership and committed one-to-one relationships is where you meet some of your most frustrating and difficult challenges and also where there is great potential for soul growth.

There may be a long delay of marriage, either by choice or simply because you never encounter "the right one". Or, you may marry or form partnerships with people who cannot be fully available to you or meet your emotional needs. You may marry out of a sense of duty, obligation, proper form, or for security instead of joy. Often there is a karmic marriage (or a series of them) in which you seem to bring out the worst in one another. Actually, this may be the basis of your avoidance of marriage: the unconscious awareness that once you commit yourself, you will have to confront your own personal demons, weaknesses, flaws, and fears. Thus, there is a sense of heaviness in your heart and mind around marriage or commitment.

In any of your close partnerships the "other" will reflect back to you your own inadequacies. If you are willing to become more conscious and to claim your own problems instead of blaming the other person, you will heal and become more whole through your marriage or other committed relationships. If you are not willing to go any deeper than "this person is not making me happy", loneliness and dissatisfaction are apt to be ongoing. This is not to say that you should martyr yourself upon the altar of marriage or stay in an abusive or painful situation, simply that "for better or for worse" will entail, for you, a good bit of both.

All of the above is complicated by the fact that you carry a rather heavy burden of self-doubt, mistrust, or guilt over having let yourself and others down in your past, when you struggled (and failed) with these same issues. You now have the opportunity to correct your course, make amends and resolve a difficult karmic tangle, or a difficult state of mind.

Your mind is serious, deep, and critical. Basically pragmatic and conservative in your thinking, you require concrete, empiric evidence to justify a belief.

You can be very one-sided in your thinking, full of doubt, disbelief and skepticism which effectively filters out any information that might enlarge your view of reality. Mental habits that can severely limit you are pessimism, harsh or exacting perfectionism, and a kind of superior judgmental attitude toward those who are less intellectually discriminating than yourself. On the other hand, you may worry that others are more intelligent than you are. On a social level, you may find it difficult to make amiable, superficial chit-chat, and may unintentionally keep potential friends, allies, and opportunities at bay. At its worst, severe shyness or a kind of social phobia may develop. Problems with speech or hearing, and an inner reluctance to communicate or listen are also possible. Consciously using humor, comedy or "laugh therapy" on a regular basis would be very beneficial to you, lightening your mental burdens considerably. Listening to light, playful flute music, bells or chimes can also be helpful. The development of a basically positive, optimistic philosophy of life would enable you to lessen the effects of a mental patterning that is frequently intolerant, overly cautious, or fearful.

The wearing of sapphire can help activate the more positive qualities here: mental concentration, depth, focus and clarity.

Overcoming a lack of confidence, fear of expressing or asserting yourself, a harsh or discouraging early life, and/or a deep distrust of the "masculine" side of life (including your own forcefulness) is part of your karmic package in this lifetime. You will struggle against oppression, from a parent, prevailing circumstances and attitudes in your environment, or your own inhibitions and fears, and may receive very little external support. Difficulties and frustration in sexual or creative expression, with men, with anger and competition, or with authority is likely. If you do not allow yourself to become resentful and bitter, you can become strong and self reliant through patience, self-discipline, persistence, hard work and building your dreams one small step at a time. Healing your wounded male side will be an important key to your eventual fulfillment.

The following is a description of your MAJOR LIFE CHALLENGES, both in terms of energies you are to learn to develop and express in a positive way, and those which are the result of struggles and unresolved karmic issues which you have brought into this life.

Your unusually inventive, creative, restless, and original mind can have both advantages and disadvantages. If you can balance or overcome tendencies toward extreme restlessness and going off on mental tangents, you have gifts of a creative genius, inspiration, and a direct awareness of truth which is apt to descend upon you like lightening, in terms of suddenly seeing the solution to some problem or grasping an idea without needing a methodical explanation. You simply have an intuitive "knowing" about something. You can be a channel for new information and ideas. A certain rebelliousness and dislike of formality and "tradition for tradition's sake" is an aspect of your mental patterning which may prevent you from taking advantage of the wisdom of the past. Often, you will "reinvent the wheel", or make changes simply for the sake of change, not necessarily to improve upon the old but because in your mind "new" or "different" is superior to the past. Your mind is very future oriented and progressive but one way this manifests is in a kind of nervous, erratic, unsettled way of being which is always moving on, unable to be present or stay put.

Centering meditations and other techniques you find helpful to calm and stabilize you are necessary on a regular basis. Regular contact with the earth, through gardening or walking for instance, can be very helpful also. The development of a regular rhythm and routine, daily rituals which give continuity and a form of stability, are also enormously helpful.

Stones that promote feelings of peace and sooth the nerves include rose quartz and jade.

Others that may benefit or inspire you include clear quartz, larimar, and opals. Avoiding caffeine and other stimulants may be necessary too, at least from time to time.

All of the above is complicated by the fact that in prior times, you experienced great personal instability as a result of impersonal, collective impulses toward change (during a time of revolution, political upheaval, war, etc.). You may well have been an agent of these movements, with a lingering inclination toward radical solutions, extremism, flauntingly disregarding social mores. Or you may have become a reactionary, fearing and resisting all reforms or departures from the "main stream". It is thus difficult for you to be balanced and fair towards any eccentricities (in others or even in yourself). A misuse of science or technology, perhaps participating in experiments which were harmful to you or others, is also indicated. Thus, you may have a deep distrust of or an attraction/repulsion toward science and technological advancement.

These issues are further complicated by the fact that in a prior life or lives you experienced a terrible betrayal, and may even have been tortured or put to death when you claimed power (social, political or spiritual). You may have misused power or employed Machiavellian strategies in which many suffered. Whether you were a perpetrator or a victim of such abuses, deep fears were engendered at that time, of being powerful or of people in power who would crush you if you display your strengths. An unconscious desire for revenge may motivate you and prevent you from healing. Letting go of this may require deep inner work and some kind of therapeutic energetic release of the grief you hold.

The following is a description of your GIFTS and STRENGTHS which can help you work with your major life challenges. These are abilities and qualities of heart, mind, and soul which are quite natural to you. You probably take them for granted. Because these represent the lines of least resistance for you, you may rely too much upon them at times; hence, there are some cautions suggested. Still, these are the areas where good flows into your life and/or where you have considerable inner resources.

Your life is blessed in numerous ways because you have developed intuitive vision (the ability to envision greater possibilities, to "see" potentials and future developments) and faith (in yourself, in the Universe's essential beneficence and abundance, and/or in a higher power that guides and protects you). Because you feel and know your connection with the whole, God, the Tao (or whatever you wish to call it), your actions and intentions are more likely to be in harmony with the larger reality and hence successful. What may appear to be your prodigious good "luck" is actually an inner alignment with this larger reality which enables you to take risks and trust, and to be generous knowing you have an inner source of support. You make choices and decisions not based solely on self interest. Innately optimistic, you tend to radiate and project positive expectations into the world, thereby actually creating or drawing them unto yourself. Because you are open to miracles, you are more than likely to see them and make them happen. The only drawback to all of this is a tendency to get lazy, because things come so easily to you. It seems as though you wear a halo, as though you are especially favored by the gods, so to speak. As long as you are willing to share your good fortune, however, this should not be a serious problem.

You have a gift for intellectual strategy and solving mysteries and puzzles. Intense mental focus and concentration, combined with your acute perceptions, enables you to do "magic" when you set your mind to it, and your wizardry in some specialized field may be well known.

You are deeply interested in what lies below the surface in any situation or person, and have an instinctive grasp of these subtleties. You may, for instance, use your hands to perceive the auric field, discover imbalances, and transmit healing energies to the one in need. The deep study of esoteric subjects, as well as the development of your mental powers, is natural to you, for you have pursued these areas in your incarnational past. This knowledge can be reawakened in you rather easily, and you are likely to be a teacher and/or transmitter of the understandings you have gained.

You have developed the capacity to direct your masculine/active, yang energies in healthy and positive ways. Thus, you have confidence in your "masculine" strengths and abilities. Ennobled by ideals of fair play and concern for the broader social implications of your choices, your actions are most often fortunate, leading to success and increased opportunities. A gift for leadership and inspiring others is also yours. Physical playfulness is an important way you can re-create and rejuvenate yourself.

You and many of your generation have a group karma that involves planetary change and awakening through upheaval and disruption. Turbulent forces in the collective mind/body/soul of your group may be expressed as violence, extreme opposition to real or perceived oppression, radical severance from all old conditioning. There is a powerful urge for change and revolution in this pattern. Becoming a positive agent of change rather than a negative reactionary or extremist is your challenge.

You and many of your generation have a group karma that involves introducing change, innovation, revolution, and progressiveness into the world around you. Rather than being disruptive or confrontational, you are successful in bringing about positive change without force.

As a group, you tend to believe that change is good and may be in more of a hurry than others are. You adapt well to the crisis involved in profound transformations, and can help those around you accept and adapt to it as well.